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I knelt
back. I again felt my throat. No
collar was there! Madly,
feverishly, I pulled up the
skirt of they tiny brown tunic,
to bare my left leg to the
waist. Yes! Yes! Yes! There was
no mistaking that small,
beautiful sign. How beautiful it
was! How well it marked me! It
was my brand. It was truly
there! I had been branded!

I again went to all fours,
shaking, almost collapsing, now
laughing, now weeping! I was
overcome with elation, with joy,
with relief. These emotions,
from the depths of me, burst
upward, like light and lava,
like the throwing open of shades
and the risings of suns, like
floods, like tides, like
treasures, like hurricanes, like
fire, powerful, irresistible,
precious! No longer did I suffer
the sense of loss.

No longer was I isolated, or
wandering alone, apart from
myself, not knowing myself, lost
from myself. Forgotten then was
the cry of alienations, of
anguish. I had not been returned
to my former condition or
meaninglessness, that of
nothingness, in which, I denied
to my real self, it forbidden to
me, must pretend to false
identities, must conform to
uncongenial stereotypes imposed
upon me from the outside.

Here I was
free to be what I was! Here I
might feel, truly feel! Here one
need not live as if indoors,
sheltered from the sunlight and
rain, here one might look upon
truth as it was in itself, not
as it might be distorted in the
labyrinths of prescribed
protocols, here one might touch
real things, like grass and the
bark of trees.
"Witness
of Gor book 26: pages 98 and
99."
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